Total pounds lost since starting diet bet: 13.2
Total steps this week: 80,588
I stepped on the scale this morning and saw a number I haven't seen in quite some time. I was immediately overjoyed. I've finally overcome the hump I haven't been able to get over in so many tries.
I have lost 20 pounds since I started wearing my Fitbit regularly again in August.
It took me a long time, but I finally reached that goal and earned that accomplishment.
I credit positive thinking and me really changing my thoughts to this. I have tried for so long and so hard but I grew to keep accepting negative results. It was hard to overcome that, but I had to.
I have found myself obsessed with getting 10,000 steps each day. On Saturday, I went to the mall alone so that I could walk until reaching the 10,000 make. The weekends are so hard for me. I want to relax and be lazy, and I want to be active. I think if the weather didn't suck so bad, it might not be as hard. But, it is what it is. I have to learn to adjust.
Back to this morning...
I was SO excited to see that number on the scale. And I was so excited to wear jeans this weekend that I haven't worn since last winter.
I thought, this was a great time to document some progress.
So, I asked my little sister to take a picture of me... I wasn't wearing a bra, and the tank top I was wearing was falling down, and I looked ridiculous.
But, what startled me the most...
I looked the same.
How could someone who has lost 13 pounds look exactly the same.
No wonder I never get compliments. I still look like that.
I had reached such a high, and in a millisecond, I fell from it. Shattered.
How long is this going to take? How long do I have to wait until I look at that progress picture and actually see something?
I felt so defeated.
For a while...
I spent a few hours just reminding myself to trust the process. Trust the process. Trust the process.
I picked myself up a bit.
I've met my 10,000 step goal today ... On a day I didn't expect to, and on a day where last week, I didn't even get to 6,000.
But, what's really resonating with
me is this quote I found browsing Pinterest...
Gosh, that really spoke to me. Time. Patience. Faith. Hope. Belief. I need more of all of these things.
I can't rush. Even though I want to. I have to trust this journey. I have to trust that someday, I'll get there. Someday.
For now, I'm changing habits, enjoying life, and finding a way to make this work.
I hope that the next time I wrote, I will be able to say that I'm miraculously sleeping again.
Cross your fingers.
I also look forward to the day when I can post a transformation picture and actually fee like I've made a difference in my own life.
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